I wish I remembered where I read it

its an odd phrase
one that makes you wonder
how the novelist would even conceive of the idea
and I wish I could remember where I read it
‘I would know your hands
in a bucket full of hands’
it caught me off guard
so weird
and kinda distasteful
how could an editor let that phrase go by
or was it debated and argued over
for days on end

but I know
exactly
that feeling
it was meant to convey

‘cause
I would know your hands
in a bucket full of hands